Happykoko

I’ve been sick since Dec.23, a day before my scheduled break. Thankfully, I mustered enough strength to finish deliverables in the office before crashing to Lagro for my long needed x-mas sabbatical. Until now, I am sick and I have yet to implement a single item from my training journal.

Anyways, as I was checking my friendster account, I  found these in my horoscope. So timely and appropriate this is for me. 

Leo (Jul 23 – Aug 22)

The Bottom Line

You have been clinging too tightly to someone when you may need to just let go.

In Detail

Someone in your life has been running hot and cold on you, and today you should turn off the faucet and walk away. You have been working so hard at making a connection with them, but it’s not worth it. You have been clinging too tightly when you may need to let go. Maybe when you’re not around, this person will understand the value you bring to their life, and maybe not. But you are not getting what you deserve right now, and you are better off moving on. Control your destiny!

 

As I’ve said to Kengkay a few moments ago, sometimes there are things that are best left unsaid, especially if the words do not hold any meaning anymore. Happy Holidays to all!

 

 

“Big dipper north of nowhere
Outside the room inside my mind
Look forward to tomorrow But can i leave yesterday behind”

Yesterday, yes I have left it behind. I dunno what happened, I just felt I needed change. I just felt I needed to get what I deserved. So here I am, outside of what I used to be. I dunno if I can still return.

“How it feels so strange
To have grown and changed
Now it’s not the same”

It’ll never be the same again. I have grown, but as people would always say, I’ve never changed. The feeling is strange, but it’s scary yet very liberating indeed.

“‘coz time, slips and slide into another place
And try, as we might to understand each other
Doesn’t really matter where you are
It always seem so far
‘coz you’re lightyears away
You’re lightyears away from me”

It’s been 5 months. I don’t think people really know why I left. I’ll never tell. It’s personal. Yes, you are now light years away. Light years away from me.

“Little dipper south of somewhere
It looks much closer than it really is
I held it in my hands
But you’re forever out of reach”

You’re forever out of reach. It’s much farther than it really is.

Look forward to tomorrow
But can i leave yesterday behind

And as I move on, I keep thinking to myself, can I really leave my yesterday behind? Have I really grown emotionally now to really let go and start all over again? I think we all see.

(Thank you to e-heads for the song I am emoting about.  “Lightyears” was part of their seminal album, “Fruitcake”, ala Sgt. Pepper’s but I digress.)

Come next week, I plan to watch “100″, this year’s Cinemalaya Grand Prize Winner. Sypnosis below:

‘100‘ chronicles the last three months of a cancer patient, Joyce (Mylene Dizon), who has a list of things to do before she passes away. Her list of tasks, mostly practical undertakings and closures, expands to the worldly and spiritual as she shares her last days with her bestfriend, Ruby (Eugene Domingo), her mother (Tessie Tomas) and the people around her.

With an unbelievably endearing appeal to the audience, this comedy-drama film guarantees 100% satisfaction. It presents to its audience a light, youthful – even humorous take on a classic subject while never failing to tug at hearts and making the viewers reach for their hankies. Filled with hilarious and touching moments, 100 boasts of stunning performances from Mylene, Eugene, Tessie and the rest of its cast.

Movie Highlights: From Shooting in Hong Kong to Skinny Dipping in Bolinao

The film is shot in different locations in the Philippines and even abroad: the white-sand beaches of Bolinao, the miraculous shrine of Manaoag, the majestic Mt. Pinatubo crater and the tourist attractions of Hong Kong.

100’s much talked-about scenes include a skinny dipping scene where the three actresses strip down while running to the ocean, a trip to the best sites of Hong Kong and the opening and closing scenes shot in the breathtaking crater of Mount Pinatubo.

Cinemalaya’s Biggest Winner

100 bagged 5 major awards in the 2008 Cinemalaya Film Festival. It won Best Director and Best Screenplay (Chris Martinez), Best Actress (Mylene Dizon), Best Supporting Actress (Eugene Domingo) and the Audience Choice Award. A genuine crowd-pleaser, the film touched the hearts of its festival audience and earned the nods of the Jury composed of international and local film experts: Max Tessier of Cannes Film Festival, Ansgar Vogt of Berlin International Film Festival, Kim Ji Seok of Pusan International Film Festival, actor Cesar Montano and film critic Lito Zulueta.

(Words and Poster taken from Clickthecity.com/movies)

I dunno who I am going to take to watch this movie, but I better bring someone since this might stroke my emotional button a little deeper than I would like. Also, it got me thinking again to trek Mt. Pinatubo next year, around January. I always liked trekking and I’ve always wanted to go to Mt. Pinatubo’s crater but not via the tourist route and means. I dunno, just being hardcore (not kuripot ha, the 4×4 rate is reasonable naman). I just missing walking up and down mountains. That’s all. To do list for January is the Mt. Pinatubo it is!