Happykoko

“Big dipper north of nowhere
Outside the room inside my mind
Look forward to tomorrow But can i leave yesterday behind”

Yesterday, yes I have left it behind. I dunno what happened, I just felt I needed change. I just felt I needed to get what I deserved. So here I am, outside of what I used to be. I dunno if I can still return.

“How it feels so strange
To have grown and changed
Now it’s not the same”

It’ll never be the same again. I have grown, but as people would always say, I’ve never changed. The feeling is strange, but it’s scary yet very liberating indeed.

“‘coz time, slips and slide into another place
And try, as we might to understand each other
Doesn’t really matter where you are
It always seem so far
‘coz you’re lightyears away
You’re lightyears away from me”

It’s been 5 months. I don’t think people really know why I left. I’ll never tell. It’s personal. Yes, you are now light years away. Light years away from me.

“Little dipper south of somewhere
It looks much closer than it really is
I held it in my hands
But you’re forever out of reach”

You’re forever out of reach. It’s much farther than it really is.

Look forward to tomorrow
But can i leave yesterday behind

And as I move on, I keep thinking to myself, can I really leave my yesterday behind? Have I really grown emotionally now to really let go and start all over again? I think we all see.

(Thank you to e-heads for the song I am emoting about.  “Lightyears” was part of their seminal album, “Fruitcake”, ala Sgt. Pepper’s but I digress.)