Happykoko

Took the test from facebook. Here is the result:
“You’re a very unhappy person. Sad nearly all the time….:-(

Nothing makes you happy. You seem to always be in a funk and never want to join in with others. Happiness isn’t something you look for, you just accept that you’re alone, and that’s that.”

Hahaha. Sad but true.

As I’ve always told myself, once I found out who the most beautiful girl in the world was, I’ll never let her go.

Image used without the photographer's permission

Coz I’d be the biggest fool if I did.

Dear Friends,

For your comments and perusal,

Henceforth, my motto would be:

No worries, no regrets, no boundaries

Once I find my old latin dictionary, I’ll translate it into Latin (duh) and have it tattooed on my left arm lest I forgot.

Don’t ask me why I am posting this, I haven’t gotten much sleep for over 24 hours now.

Just saw Into the Wild a few weeks ago, this was the story about the  ill-fated adventures of Chris McCandless. I didn’t like the guy’s belief system at all but I totally admire his philosophy. Travel the less road traveled and travel with the basics only. That’s how we should roll it.

As I’ve always told friends, I am a DIY tourist and I find my traveling experience more enriching and exciting by trying to get to point A to Point B with the cheapest and most efficient way possible.

So with this post, I am declaring my 2009 Into the Wild Travel Series open!

Top 3 Places to go to:

1. Caramoan Islands

2. Pararan Beach

3. Batanes Islands

Need to buy:

- A good camera (Canon Ixus series preferably)

- A lighter backpack (my mountaineering backpack is sturdy but too heavy)

I will go to these places this year, by hook or by crook (sorry for this cliche’)

Just got back from Health Way to have my right knee x-rayed (yes, THAT bothersome right knee). The results won’t be released till thursday but the radiologist showed me the slide before it got sent out for analysis and I can say that my knee is really f*cked-up this time. All I want is the pain to go away. To be able to run again and play all sort of sports that I would want to get into. This time I am taking the right road by having it treated and looked at. No more D-I-Y cures for me. I am getting old and I am getting tired of being hurt all the time. 

For the record, I am not afraid to go under the knife, I just don’t like the hassle that goes after when I have to recuperate from it.

No gf, no right knee. I am such a loser yaya.

1. Get Healthy – I have been sick for quite a while during the latter part of the year. I know this was due to work-related stress, nevertheless, I could’ve taken better care of myself then. Anyways, besides the proverbial lose weight mantra, I promise to eat better, think happy thoughts and get lots of sleep. 

2. Get Laid – I mean, get a girlfriend. Hehe. Enough said.

3. Pursue graduate studies – Must take a stab at graduate school again. As I get older, higher learning provides me with credibility in an otherwise hullabaloo corporate world.

4. Travel – I’m thinking of travelling on my own this year. Walk the unbeaten path, explore culture and let loose, err in simplier terms, get lost.

5. Hoard lots of cash – We are in the midst of a global recession stupid!

6. Make lots of friends – If I can’t hoard lots of  moolah, atleast I’ll have new freinds to share my misery with. In my friendster main pic, I was sleeping. I think it’s time to wake-up.

7. Get a house – Will be discussing with my parents this year if we could get a house of our own. My dad’s retiring soon so this could be a good investment for him. This would be for my parents though. I plan to be somewhere in the northern hemisphere during my 30’s. I don’t plan to stay in one place for too long anyways.

8. Run a marathon – I don’t know if I could train for this, gimpy knees and all. But as runners would say, you’ve never lived until you ran your first marathon.

9. Read books – I haven’t been reading much since most info that I need is on the net already nowadays. Somehow I equate leisure reading with unnecessary expense since I don’t re-read books that I’ve already read (greatest flaw- impeccable memory). But sure enough, I noticed that I was getting dumber. There is something in our thought processes that stagnates if we only digest immutable data. I guess reading non-fiction stirs the pot in our head so that we don’t always re-hash the tired goulash, it would be nice if I could get a tom-yum gum once in a while.  

10. Love myself  - I cannot give what I do not have. I cannot save all but I can save my self. It’s time to say Me now. I don’t think most people would mind. I don’t think most care anyways. Hehe.

Happy New Year to All. I wish all good health, prosperity and much love. All we need is love. Aza aza fighting!

I’ve been sick since Dec.23, a day before my scheduled break. Thankfully, I mustered enough strength to finish deliverables in the office before crashing to Lagro for my long needed x-mas sabbatical. Until now, I am sick and I have yet to implement a single item from my training journal.

Anyways, as I was checking my friendster account, I  found these in my horoscope. So timely and appropriate this is for me. 

Leo (Jul 23 – Aug 22)

The Bottom Line

You have been clinging too tightly to someone when you may need to just let go.

In Detail

Someone in your life has been running hot and cold on you, and today you should turn off the faucet and walk away. You have been working so hard at making a connection with them, but it’s not worth it. You have been clinging too tightly when you may need to let go. Maybe when you’re not around, this person will understand the value you bring to their life, and maybe not. But you are not getting what you deserve right now, and you are better off moving on. Control your destiny!

 

As I’ve said to Kengkay a few moments ago, sometimes there are things that are best left unsaid, especially if the words do not hold any meaning anymore. Happy Holidays to all!

 

 

“Big dipper north of nowhere
Outside the room inside my mind
Look forward to tomorrow But can i leave yesterday behind”

Yesterday, yes I have left it behind. I dunno what happened, I just felt I needed change. I just felt I needed to get what I deserved. So here I am, outside of what I used to be. I dunno if I can still return.

“How it feels so strange
To have grown and changed
Now it’s not the same”

It’ll never be the same again. I have grown, but as people would always say, I’ve never changed. The feeling is strange, but it’s scary yet very liberating indeed.

“‘coz time, slips and slide into another place
And try, as we might to understand each other
Doesn’t really matter where you are
It always seem so far
‘coz you’re lightyears away
You’re lightyears away from me”

It’s been 5 months. I don’t think people really know why I left. I’ll never tell. It’s personal. Yes, you are now light years away. Light years away from me.

“Little dipper south of somewhere
It looks much closer than it really is
I held it in my hands
But you’re forever out of reach”

You’re forever out of reach. It’s much farther than it really is.

Look forward to tomorrow
But can i leave yesterday behind

And as I move on, I keep thinking to myself, can I really leave my yesterday behind? Have I really grown emotionally now to really let go and start all over again? I think we all see.

(Thank you to e-heads for the song I am emoting about.  “Lightyears” was part of their seminal album, “Fruitcake”, ala Sgt. Pepper’s but I digress.)

Come next week, I plan to watch “100″, this year’s Cinemalaya Grand Prize Winner. Sypnosis below:

‘100‘ chronicles the last three months of a cancer patient, Joyce (Mylene Dizon), who has a list of things to do before she passes away. Her list of tasks, mostly practical undertakings and closures, expands to the worldly and spiritual as she shares her last days with her bestfriend, Ruby (Eugene Domingo), her mother (Tessie Tomas) and the people around her.

With an unbelievably endearing appeal to the audience, this comedy-drama film guarantees 100% satisfaction. It presents to its audience a light, youthful – even humorous take on a classic subject while never failing to tug at hearts and making the viewers reach for their hankies. Filled with hilarious and touching moments, 100 boasts of stunning performances from Mylene, Eugene, Tessie and the rest of its cast.

Movie Highlights: From Shooting in Hong Kong to Skinny Dipping in Bolinao

The film is shot in different locations in the Philippines and even abroad: the white-sand beaches of Bolinao, the miraculous shrine of Manaoag, the majestic Mt. Pinatubo crater and the tourist attractions of Hong Kong.

100’s much talked-about scenes include a skinny dipping scene where the three actresses strip down while running to the ocean, a trip to the best sites of Hong Kong and the opening and closing scenes shot in the breathtaking crater of Mount Pinatubo.

Cinemalaya’s Biggest Winner

100 bagged 5 major awards in the 2008 Cinemalaya Film Festival. It won Best Director and Best Screenplay (Chris Martinez), Best Actress (Mylene Dizon), Best Supporting Actress (Eugene Domingo) and the Audience Choice Award. A genuine crowd-pleaser, the film touched the hearts of its festival audience and earned the nods of the Jury composed of international and local film experts: Max Tessier of Cannes Film Festival, Ansgar Vogt of Berlin International Film Festival, Kim Ji Seok of Pusan International Film Festival, actor Cesar Montano and film critic Lito Zulueta.

(Words and Poster taken from Clickthecity.com/movies)

I dunno who I am going to take to watch this movie, but I better bring someone since this might stroke my emotional button a little deeper than I would like. Also, it got me thinking again to trek Mt. Pinatubo next year, around January. I always liked trekking and I’ve always wanted to go to Mt. Pinatubo’s crater but not via the tourist route and means. I dunno, just being hardcore (not kuripot ha, the 4×4 rate is reasonable naman). I just missing walking up and down mountains. That’s all. To do list for January is the Mt. Pinatubo it is!

For the past week or so, I have been able to live with both my angels and demon side by side sharing space and time with my soul (uhmm, religious and physics at the same time… deep…). What are these? Let me enumerate… Demons goes first…

Demons

1. Alcohol – drinking like a sailor lately

2. Injuries – sprains, MCL, hamstrings strains, you name it

3. Over-eating – nuff said.

4. Laziness – sleeping 10 hrs. seems bitin pa.

5. Depression – I seem more melancholic than usual.

Angels (Not as many as above)

1. Faith – Been praying more, not necessarily more religious. There is a clear distinction.

2. Training – B-ball and running, being sidelined for a month makes you appreciate your healthy lifestyle and having fresh legs is not bad as well.

3. Eating healthy – Being sidelined with injuries made me grumpy and bulgy, I try to eat better now for chrisakes I am 28 I will not live forever. I get that now.

Hehe… more demons than angels. Not good, but still I am still alive aint I. Time will tell who ultimately gets my soul. For the meantime, I am enjoying the co-existence of both sides of the coin.