One Sweet Love
The time that I’ve taken,
I pray is not wasted,
Have I already tasted my piece of one sweet love?
– One Sweet Love, Sara Bareilles
I think in all the 30 summers that has come and passed in my life, I enjoyed this summer the most. And throughout this summer, amongst my travel companions and friends that I shared time with, I think the most compelling discussion that I had with them was about how love is defined amongst different point of views and experiences.
For some, love is being happy in your own solitude because it is easier to live life that way. It is not a compromise nor a lazy conviction but a conscious choice to be happy on your own. Life is certainly more fulfilling with someone else to prop your arm as you go up the staircase once you reach your golden years but not everyone is fearless to risk against pain and anguish just in case, in some cases, that is what it would take to fall in love with someone.
For some, they define love by seeking it in the most uncommon places, people and from the most uncommon events. It may seem glutinous for some, but who is to say what is moderate enough for a person to consume love. Who has the magic formula when it comes to this potent emotion anyways?
For some, love is trouncing previously held beliefs and giving up your son’s fate to a higher power that you once conceived as irrelevant, illogical and impractical. Love for them is what makes the impossible anathema to what lies beyond the realms of possibilities that we prefer to call life.
Throughout my life, my one definition of love is this: love is when you hold on to someone else’s hand and never ever let go of that hand all throughout the rollercoaster ride of each other’s lives. My definition has never changed but my conviction or belief on this definition would waver from time to time depending on how I would fare on my own personal relationships, romantic or otherwise. Some say that my definition is just innate fixation with object permanence, that I objectify love and thus prefer to believe that love exists as long as you hold on to it. The jury is still out and by jury; I mean time would be the judge if my definition holds water.
For one, I doubt if anybody would want to hold my hands for the longest time. My hands are rough, clammy and would produce enough sweat to water a plant for a week almost immediately once it gets into contact with any foreign object (human hands included). Although these same hands are strong and could hold on to anything for dear life indefinitely, sadly I haven’t found any hands to hold on long enough to test my definition. It goes without saying though that inasmuch as my hands are not perfect, at least anyone who holds it can be assured that I will never let go. My hands may get clammy at times; but it is because it is moist with anticipation as to where life would lead me and the other person that is holding on to it. It might be rough but it gives it a certain grip comfortable enough for the holder to hold on to forever.
I deem it necessary to apologize for such a sappy read, but I would want to define my views now, because if my critics are right, if this only object permanence, might as well will the object to exist than to pine for it forever.
The Hobbi(es)t
Hobbies are fun and fulfilling. It keeps me fit and active. As I turn 30 this year, I need all the activities that I can cram in the short free time that I have every week to re-ignite my slowing metabolism. However, like other forms of recreation and entertainment, these activities can be easily scrapped off as unnecessary and a complete waste of time and money. As I seek the middle way, I will try to rationalize my current hobbies obsessions and whittle it down to a sustainable few. Yes, curbing my spending is the objective of this exercise.
I’m not that anal to do a SWOT analysis so I’ll just content myself by listing the pro and con of each hobby. Of course, the hobbies with the most cons e.g. expensive get scrapped off my plate.
1. Basketball
– Pro – Fairly competent player already (no more learning curve aka maxed out na…ha-ha), focus intensive (ADHD placebo cure)
– Con – Relatively expensive equipment (shoes, ball and outfit), no playmates (can be remedied of course), have to play within 80% capacity threshold so as not to further injure arthritic knee.
2. Badminton
– Pro – Has standard equipment already (racket, outfit, etc.), excellent stress reliever (imagine the shuttlecock as your boss and then smash away)
– Con – Has regressed in playing ability/skills due to arthritic knee/hips/ankle/forearms.
3. Snorkeling
– Pro – Does not stress the knee at all, I’m a water nymph from a past life (?!)
– Con – location specific (you have to go out of metro manila to one of the beaches to get your fix. Doing this on a swimming pool is dorky and creepy at the same time).
4. Surfing
– Pro – The Flow. ‘Nuff said.
– Con – Need to build up on gear and the ultimate equipment – zee surf board, is uber-expensive. Need to have a car to get carry all your gear to a beach with waves.
5. Biking
– Pro – Has bike already. Low impact cardio exercise ergo good alternative to running.
– Con – Upgrading the bike is somewhat addicting. The bike is 3 times more expensive from its purchase price due to the upgrades alone. Weather is crucial to a fun filled biking afternoon.
6. Swimming
– Pro – Same pro as above with snorkeling, public swimming pools are available metro wide.
– Con – No swimming buddy (swimming alone is dangerous). By survey, entrance fees to swimming pools are kind of steep.
7. Traveling
– Pro – Seeing the world keeps the soul from dying. It gives you a better perspective on the diversity of life and the necessity of propagating understanding and cooperation to our fellow men. Has stable group of travel buddies.
– Con – Cost intensive. Not all travel points would give you the “high” that you expected or had from previous travels. Stressful if not planned properly.
Oops, one prominent hobby is missing. Yes, I’m not into running anymore. Something has to give, my knee or running. It was a very easy choice on my side. That’s enough about my falling out with it though; running was my first and greatest love among my hobbies. Getting a 45 min PR for 10km is the sweetest, I tell you.
Hmmm…surveying what I’ve written above, I can easily do away with traveling since I can always go back to it when I explicitly need to travel for business. I can also do away with snorkeling since it’s almost the same as swimming sans the snorkeling gear. Although I love getting “the flow”, surfing is also cost extensive for me since it involves traveling also hence 2 hobbies in one. Therefore, I should also have to tighten my belt and let go of it also.
What I have left now are the following:
Basketball
Badminton
Biking
Swimming (done semi-regularly)
With all these activities, undeniably it begets the question, why am I still over weight? That deserves another blog entry altogether. Hihihi.
I write likey
Atleast not Dan Brown!
Cinemalayo
I’ve always loved indie movies. I love movies that tell stories without resorting to eye popping razzle dazzle effects and worse inutile dialogue (“I’m hotter than you”, belch!). Yes indie movies can sometimes try too hard to be “indie” but if you give me 200 bucks to watch another installment of THAT vampire love story (somehow vampirism and love story does not bite me, pun intended) franchise, I’ll use that money to buy pirated Lav Diaz’s movies in Quiapo instead. Diaz’s movies might’ve been full of hubris, but he makes it up with gravitas (sitting through a 12- hour Lav Diaz movie is the verbatim definition of hubris in the dictionary. Look it up.).
And so, as my preamble goes, I met Jalberti at CCP to take a dip into Filipino Indiecinephelia (such an insert word here !).
Since Cinemalaya is on its 6th year, they amped up their serving by dividing movies into various categories e.g. new breed, director showcase, shorts, etc. As if we do not know the newbies from the tandercats?! So andaming pagpipillian, what na? As usual, I have troves of theories to rely upon whenever I get into these schiznitz moments. For this one, I go by the Flock is right or your fucked theory. Meaning, one should go with the direction of the herd unless you want to be branded as pasaway. So I told Jalberti, let’s watch the movie with the longest line! Normally, Jalberti on a full stomach would raise an objection to such absurd communal theory but hunger is such a dumbing pill, he acquiesced.
So off we go to get in line for Two Funerals by Gil Portes since it had the longest line then. On hindsight, even if my theory was correct, my method was flawed since we didn’t check the other theaters if their lines were longer than ours, alas dispensa Jalberti.
Two Funerals is a (screwball) dark comedy about the mix-up of two cadavers that were victims of a bus accident in Gapan, Nueva Ecija. Since it is an indie movie, the pre-requisite good acting was present. The story was also good but as Jalberti said, it was bordering on Magical Realism already. Again, I have no compunction if a movie has elements of both, but this is an indie movie for chrissakes! An indie movie plus dark comedy plus magical realism is not only redundant, it reeks of self-indulgence! It’s like Jejemons having their own dictionary!?
Anyways, after the movie, since the director was sitting just a row below us, I clapped with the pretension of politeness (I was afraid that he might see me being haughty and slap me silly). Jalberti did not clap; he was too polite to patronize the shenanigans of direk. I admired Jalberti’s resolve at that moment.
And that was the end of our filmfest adventure. The movie drained too much from our brains that it manifested into hunger so we had an early dinner at Jubilee and then spent the rest of the afternoon discussing about poverty and “tirahan”. Topics typically spread-eagled in Cinemanila but was relatively absent on this year’s roster.
On another note, what’s with the increasing ticket prices. In 2009, it was only 120, now it’s 150. That’s around a 25% increase ha! I understand the producers need to recoup their expenses but increasing the prices somehow defeats the commercialism candor of these movies. If my math is right, 2011 prices would be at 180 level if the trend continues. Foreign film ito?
P.S. I live in Fairview. So going to CCP on a Saturday for me is malayo. As in Cinemalayo talaga (corniness and italics mine).
Anger
The world needs anger. The world often continues to allow evil because it isn’t angry enough. ~ Fr. Bede Jarrett
I was watching the Inauguration Speech of P.Noy yesterday and what struck me the most among the talking points of his speech was his stand to forgive his enemies but (sic) forgive those the wronged the Filipino people he could not.
I hope he is truly the angry President that he projects to be. Us Filipino’s are too forgiving, too forgetful. Our wrath has limited bounds. We cried for the loss of love ones during floods and other man made disasters yet we often fail to look back at those who kicked the shit out of our pants. We wail in agony for those victims of injustice and heinous crimes yet we forget to parlay such emotions into justice. Life is not fair. If somebody will slap you, God will not go down from the Heavens to put out his right cheek to take the hit for you. You either run or you can fight. Pity the fool said BA Baracus. Let us not be foolish to think that the world dispenses universal justice. That is like praying for the damnation of your would-be assassin’s soul just before he pulls the trigger on a gun pointed at your right temple.
You can either run or fight. You have no other choice but either to run or fight.
Let us be angry for those that treat us as fools. Anger is not tantamount to hatred. Sometimes anger spares us from life long hatred. Anger is the call for action. It is not for diaspora but for the congregation of individuals that would stand up and say, “This will be the last of your transgressions you piece of shit!”
Let us be angry for the right reasons and not because of fear or hate. Let us be angry because enough is enough.
Munting Tinig
Holy week na. Ano ba ang maaring puntahan para di ako mabagot. Kailangan ko mag-bakasyon. Gusto ko umalis sa paligid na familyar. Gusto ko mabasa ang aking paa sa malamig na tubig ng dagat.
Kailangan ko tumakbo. Tumakbo ng dahan-dahan. Dahan-dahan kong tatahakin ang bagong landas. Hindi ko nga alam kung nawawala ako. Basta diretso lang.Tuloy-tuloy lang. Aabot din ako sa dulo. Sa dulo ng daan, hindi ko inaasahan ko makikita ko ang kasagutan. Ang masaya, ginawa ko sya. Di ako umupo sa gilid ng tulay at tumingin lang sa mga nagdaraang bangka sa ilalim ko. Siguro may ADHD nga ako, di ako makapakali. Marami ako hinahanap kahit lahat nasa aking mga palad na. Pero masaya maghanap. Kapag wala ka na hinahanap, bulag ka na. Sabog ka na. Wala ka na pag-asa. Ang tao ay nabubuhay dahil meron sya kailangang araruhin sa araw-araw. Walang saysay ang buhay mo kung ang balak mo sa buong umaga ay tumingin sa bintana para bilangin ang mga ibong makikita mo sa mga puno.
Mayroong tinig sa iyong puso. Isang tinig na munti ngunit masidhing bumubulong, tumatawag, naririnig. “Hoy, asan ka na?.” Kung ang sagot mo “ay andito pa.” Patay tayo dyan.
May paa tayo para sumikad. Literal na sumikad. Ang mga ninuno natin ay mga nomad. Sanay tayong mawala at makabalik kung saan man tayo nanggaling. At isa pa, ang taba ko na para umupo lang maghapon dito sa opisina.
Kailangan ko ng preskong hangin. Maski dalawang araw lang. Naman.
Today is the beginning of the End
Today is Day 1. This will be a long month for me. But I must go now. Before it’s too late.
I have too many things in my head right now. But I’m sleeping much better now after I tendered my resignation to my manager.
Sometimes, I tend to forget the power of positive thinking in my life. I basically willed this change. Can I will getting a new love life too?
I shall not count the days to the end. Rather I shall how much is left for me to do good for the company and to my team.
I shall not miss this place, but I must do what is feel needed to have a graceful exit.
What is your inner self saying?
Took the test from facebook. Here is the result:
“You’re a very unhappy person. Sad nearly all the time….:-(
Nothing makes you happy. You seem to always be in a funk and never want to join in with others. Happiness isn’t something you look for, you just accept that you’re alone, and that’s that.”
Hahaha. Sad but true.
You you you…
As I’ve always told myself, once I found out who the most beautiful girl in the world was, I’ll never let her go.
Image used without the photographer's permission 🙂
Coz I’d be the biggest fool if I did.
A new Motto, in toto…
Dear Friends,
For your comments and perusal,
Henceforth, my motto would be:
No worries, no regrets, no boundaries
Once I find my old latin dictionary, I’ll translate it into Latin (duh) and have it tattooed on my left arm lest I forgot.
Don’t ask me why I am posting this, I haven’t gotten much sleep for over 24 hours now.
A Sobering Thought
I don’t think anyone in my immediate circle has realized it yet that I’ve drinking consistently with a few days of intervals for the past three years or so. I wouldn’t say that I’m an abject alcoholic but I knew something was wrong about a year ago when I was looking to buy something to quench my thirst at a local 7-11 store and I took at a couple of San Mig lights to get my fix (it was an afternoon). Since then, I have been into lala limbo every other day or so. So this week, I had a resolve to stop drinking alcohol completely but not right after downing a medium-sized bottle of GSM Blue and evidently knocking myself out of my socks for the last time, ofcourse.
It might be a while before I taste you again my old friend *sob
So far it has been seven days and counting. Not that I’ll completely stop myself from drinking. But I guess, it would be wise (as advised by my liver), to reduce the frequency from a M-W-F scheme into a more manageable 2x a month ruckus.
I know for a fact that I have been drinking because I wanted to numb the pain that I have been feeling for the past few years or so (not related to a single event mind you) but I realized that somehow I have to put my foot down. I’m turning 29 this year, I don’t want to get into my 3rd decade of my life brain dead. Being autistic is bollocks enough.
Into the Wild
Just saw Into the Wild a few weeks ago, this was the story about the ill-fated adventures of Chris McCandless. I didn’t like the guy’s belief system at all but I totally admire his philosophy. Travel the less road traveled and travel with the basics only. That’s how we should roll it.
As I’ve always told friends, I am a DIY tourist and I find my traveling experience more enriching and exciting by trying to get to point A to Point B with the cheapest and most efficient way possible.
So with this post, I am declaring my 2009 Into the Wild Travel Series open!
Top 3 Places to go to:
1. Caramoan Islands
2. Pararan Beach
3. Batanes Islands
Need to buy:
– A good camera (Canon Ixus series preferably)
– A lighter backpack (my mountaineering backpack is sturdy but too heavy)
I will go to these places this year, by hook or by crook (sorry for this cliche’)
Under the knife soon?
Just got back from Health Way to have my right knee x-rayed (yes, THAT bothersome right knee). The results won’t be released till thursday but the radiologist showed me the slide before it got sent out for analysis and I can say that my knee is really f*cked-up this time. All I want is the pain to go away. To be able to run again and play all sort of sports that I would want to get into. This time I am taking the right road by having it treated and looked at. No more D-I-Y cures for me. I am getting old and I am getting tired of being hurt all the time.
For the record, I am not afraid to go under the knife, I just don’t like the hassle that goes after when I have to recuperate from it.
No gf, no right knee. I am such a loser yaya.
2009 New Year’s Resolution
1. Get Healthy – I have been sick for quite a while during the latter part of the year. I know this was due to work-related stress, nevertheless, I could’ve taken better care of myself then. Anyways, besides the proverbial lose weight mantra, I promise to eat better, think happy thoughts and get lots of sleep.
2. Get Laid – I mean, get a girlfriend. Hehe. Enough said.
3. Pursue graduate studies – Must take a stab at graduate school again. As I get older, higher learning provides me with credibility in an otherwise hullabaloo corporate world.
4. Travel – I’m thinking of travelling on my own this year. Walk the unbeaten path, explore culture and let loose, err in simplier terms, get lost.
5. Hoard lots of cash – We are in the midst of a global recession stupid!
6. Make lots of friends – If I can’t hoard lots of moolah, atleast I’ll have new freinds to share my misery with. In my friendster main pic, I was sleeping. I think it’s time to wake-up.
7. Get a house – Will be discussing with my parents this year if we could get a house of our own. My dad’s retiring soon so this could be a good investment for him. This would be for my parents though. I plan to be somewhere in the northern hemisphere during my 30’s. I don’t plan to stay in one place for too long anyways.
8. Run a marathon – I don’t know if I could train for this, gimpy knees and all. But as runners would say, you’ve never lived until you ran your first marathon.
9. Read books – I haven’t been reading much since most info that I need is on the net already nowadays. Somehow I equate leisure reading with unnecessary expense since I don’t re-read books that I’ve already read (greatest flaw- impeccable memory). But sure enough, I noticed that I was getting dumber. There is something in our thought processes that stagnates if we only digest immutable data. I guess reading non-fiction stirs the pot in our head so that we don’t always re-hash the tired goulash, it would be nice if I could get a tom-yum gum once in a while.
10. Love myself – I cannot give what I do not have. I cannot save all but I can save my self. It’s time to say Me now. I don’t think most people would mind. I don’t think most care anyways. Hehe.
Happy New Year to All. I wish all good health, prosperity and much love. All we need is love. Aza aza fighting!
Horrorscope
I’ve been sick since Dec.23, a day before my scheduled break. Thankfully, I mustered enough strength to finish deliverables in the office before crashing to Lagro for my long needed x-mas sabbatical. Until now, I am sick and I have yet to implement a single item from my training journal.
Anyways, as I was checking my friendster account, I found these in my horoscope. So timely and appropriate this is for me.
Leo (Jul 23 – Aug 22)
The Bottom Line
You have been clinging too tightly to someone when you may need to just let go.
In Detail
Someone in your life has been running hot and cold on you, and today you should turn off the faucet and walk away. You have been working so hard at making a connection with them, but it’s not worth it. You have been clinging too tightly when you may need to let go. Maybe when you’re not around, this person will understand the value you bring to their life, and maybe not. But you are not getting what you deserve right now, and you are better off moving on. Control your destiny!
As I’ve said to Kengkay a few moments ago, sometimes there are things that are best left unsaid, especially if the words do not hold any meaning anymore. Happy Holidays to all!
Lightyears
“Big dipper north of nowhere
Outside the room inside my mind
Look forward to tomorrow But can i leave yesterday behind”
Yesterday, yes I have left it behind. I dunno what happened, I just felt I needed change. I just felt I needed to get what I deserved. So here I am, outside of what I used to be. I dunno if I can still return.
“How it feels so strange
To have grown and changed
Now it’s not the same”
It’ll never be the same again. I have grown, but as people would always say, I’ve never changed. The feeling is strange, but it’s scary yet very liberating indeed.
“‘coz time, slips and slide into another place
And try, as we might to understand each other
Doesn’t really matter where you are
It always seem so far
‘coz you’re lightyears away
You’re lightyears away from me”
It’s been 5 months. I don’t think people really know why I left. I’ll never tell. It’s personal. Yes, you are now light years away. Light years away from me.
“Little dipper south of somewhere
It looks much closer than it really is
I held it in my hands
But you’re forever out of reach”
You’re forever out of reach. It’s much farther than it really is.
Look forward to tomorrow
But can i leave yesterday behind
And as I move on, I keep thinking to myself, can I really leave my yesterday behind? Have I really grown emotionally now to really let go and start all over again? I think we all see.
(Thank you to e-heads for the song I am emoting about. “Lightyears” was part of their seminal album, “Fruitcake”, ala Sgt. Pepper’s but I digress.)
“100”
Come next week, I plan to watch “100”, this year’s Cinemalaya Grand Prize Winner. Sypnosis below:
‘100‘ chronicles the last three months of a cancer patient, Joyce (Mylene Dizon), who has a list of things to do before she passes away. Her list of tasks, mostly practical undertakings and closures, expands to the worldly and spiritual as she shares her last days with her bestfriend, Ruby (Eugene Domingo), her mother (Tessie Tomas) and the people around her.
With an unbelievably endearing appeal to the audience, this comedy-drama film guarantees 100% satisfaction. It presents to its audience a light, youthful – even humorous take on a classic subject while never failing to tug at hearts and making the viewers reach for their hankies. Filled with hilarious and touching moments, 100 boasts of stunning performances from Mylene, Eugene, Tessie and the rest of its cast.
Movie Highlights: From Shooting in Hong Kong to Skinny Dipping in Bolinao
The film is shot in different locations in the Philippines and even abroad: the white-sand beaches of Bolinao, the miraculous shrine of Manaoag, the majestic Mt. Pinatubo crater and the tourist attractions of Hong Kong.
100’s much talked-about scenes include a skinny dipping scene where the three actresses strip down while running to the ocean, a trip to the best sites of Hong Kong and the opening and closing scenes shot in the breathtaking crater of Mount Pinatubo.
Cinemalaya’s Biggest Winner
100 bagged 5 major awards in the 2008 Cinemalaya Film Festival. It won Best Director and Best Screenplay (Chris Martinez), Best Actress (Mylene Dizon), Best Supporting Actress (Eugene Domingo) and the Audience Choice Award. A genuine crowd-pleaser, the film touched the hearts of its festival audience and earned the nods of the Jury composed of international and local film experts: Max Tessier of Cannes Film Festival, Ansgar Vogt of Berlin International Film Festival, Kim Ji Seok of Pusan International Film Festival, actor Cesar Montano and film critic Lito Zulueta.
(Words and Poster taken from Clickthecity.com/movies)
I dunno who I am going to take to watch this movie, but I better bring someone since this might stroke my emotional button a little deeper than I would like. Also, it got me thinking again to trek Mt. Pinatubo next year, around January. I always liked trekking and I’ve always wanted to go to Mt. Pinatubo’s crater but not via the tourist route and means. I dunno, just being hardcore (not kuripot ha, the 4×4 rate is reasonable naman). I just missing walking up and down mountains. That’s all. To do list for January is the Mt. Pinatubo it is!
Whylight
Just saw “Twilight” yesterday in Rockwell Cinemas.
I now consider myself, officially depressed!
Demons and Angels
For the past week or so, I have been able to live with both my angels and demon side by side sharing space and time with my soul (uhmm, religious and physics at the same time… deep…). What are these? Let me enumerate… Demons goes first…
Demons
1. Alcohol – drinking like a sailor lately
2. Injuries – sprains, MCL, hamstrings strains, you name it
3. Over-eating – nuff said.
4. Laziness – sleeping 10 hrs. seems bitin pa.
5. Depression – I seem more melancholic than usual.
Angels (Not as many as above)
1. Faith – Been praying more, not necessarily more religious. There is a clear distinction.
2. Training – B-ball and running, being sidelined for a month makes you appreciate your healthy lifestyle and having fresh legs is not bad as well.
3. Eating healthy – Being sidelined with injuries made me grumpy and bulgy, I try to eat better now for chrisakes I am 28 I will not live forever. I get that now.
Hehe… more demons than angels. Not good, but still I am still alive aint I. Time will tell who ultimately gets my soul. For the meantime, I am enjoying the co-existence of both sides of the coin.
Realizations
I am getting more homo by the minute…. Tsk…tsk…
1. I’ve come to realise that my butt: is cute but really huge.
2. I’ve come to realise that if I love someone: I still shouldn’t be afraid to show them that I love them, no matter how much it hurts in the end.
3. I’ve come to realise that I need: to get laid once in a while to keep me sane and upbeat (oops…)
5. I’ve come to realise that I’ve lost: a lot of money by not accounting much of it that comes my way.
6. I’ve come to realise that I hate it when: I’m idle.
7. I’ve come to realise that if I’m drunk: I become much more honest to others around me.
8. I’ve come to realise that money: makes me happy more than eating.
9. I’ve come to realise that my mother: is more sensible that I am in a non-sensical way though.
10. I’ve come to realise that I’ll probably always be: romantic and jaded at same time.
11. I’ve come to realise that I have a crush on: nobody, for now.
12. I’ve come to realise that the last time I cried was: when I realized that I was getting older but my problems does not.
13. I’ve come to realise that my cell phone: is my only companion at the moment.
14. I’ve come to realise that when I wake up in the morning: I would feel guilty that I didn’t get up earlier to train because I’m so lazy and… fat.
15. I’ve come to realise that before I go to sleep at night: I still think about work.
16. I’ve come to realise that right now I am thinking about: things that I regret doing in the past that I have this resolve not to wallow on them.
17. I’ve come to realise that babies: are the last thing in my mind right, got to find someone to impregnate first.
18. I’ve come to realise that when I get on wordpress: I check other blogs first because I find mine boring.
19. I’ve come to realise that today I will: always try my best even if I fail at first, even if I’m tired already.
20. I’ve come to realise that tonight I will: have to run 10km to make-up for all those mornings that I overslept.
21. I’ve come to realise that tomorrow I will: still be me, always trying to be better.
22. I’ve come to realise that I really want to: be myself, kick ass, be a good father and husband and die with a smile someday.
23. I’ve come to realise that who is most likely to repost this is: as non-original as me.
24. I’ve come to realise relationships: work best for people who are into relationships and not merely for sex and companionship only.
25. I’ve come to realise love: is not something that is abstract, it is real and it is all around us.
26. I’ve come to realise my best guy friend/s: are those that think I am a geek but still like me anyway.
27. I’ve come to realise my best girl friend/s: are those that think that I am a gentlemanyak but figures that am safer to be with than the average single guys around them.
28. I’ve come to realise food: is my worse enemy.
29. I’ve come to realise that when I’m a boyfriend: the next time, I should be happier and be more content than I am now in my single state.
30. I’ve come to realise girls and boys: have more sexual tension with each other than they care to admit.
31. I’ve come to realise over the summer: that the season is over-rated and magastos!
32. I’ve come to realise heartbreak: destroys you so that you learn how you can rebuild a better version of yourself.
Which Superhero are you?
Your results:
You are Hulk
| You are a wanderer with amazing strength.
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Burn-out
Was on my way home to Fairview, wanted to catch one of those “patok” bus plying along Guadalupe, Edsa when I suddenly saw a bus going to Dagupan City via Dau. I said to myself, ” Cool, if I wanted to go to Dau, I don’t have to go to all the way to Cubao to catch one.” Then the irony simultaneously hit me, why would I want to go to Dau in the first place (except to visit my Uncle Toto and his family, maybe)? Oh, visiting J is not part of my routine anymore. My enthusiasm died. How fleeting our joys are compared to our sorrows. Sniff… Sniff…
(Not the bus to Dau, people)
Double irony, when I saw that bus, the song that was playing on my MP3 player was Burn-Out by Sugarfree….
Kung iisipin mo, ‘di naman dati ganito
Teka muna, teka lang, kelan tayo nailang?
Kung iisipin mo, ‘di naman dati ganito
Kay bilis kasi ng buhay, pati tayo natangay
I felt sad thereafter. But people have to move on. I need to grow on. That is that. That is life.
Tinatawag kita, sinusuyo kita
‘Di mo man marinig, ‘di mo man madama
O, kay tagal din kitang mamahalin… Mamahalin!
My Daemon
I was expecting it to be a worm or a weasel. Oh well, atleast the daemon’s name sounds menacing. 🙂
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Close to the End
This song was written by Lougee Basabas when she was with Mojofly.
Naka-relate ako. Sorry for the mushiness of this post. 😦
Close to the End
have you ever felt being there
have you ever found the sunshine on your hair
have you been under your skin
have you ever found the beauty from within
like an unfamiliar song
you can hum with all your heart
but you’ll never find the words
and i don’t wanna wake up
without you again
and i don’t wanna wake up
feeling so close to the end
have you ever thought of nothing else
as i wake up each day until the moment i lay my head on my bed
and as i close my eyes and cling to my pillow
though you’re miles away i still wait for the day that would never come
the stars are bound to die
it all makes no sense
i can’t take the chance
i don’t want to see you go
Enough Said…..
Happykoko 